The Art of Becoming

I have lived my life according to rules that no longer apply.

I don’t have to be silent, angry, incredibly hurt and grieving.

Fifty-five now and practising

The Art of Becoming.

Becoming comfortable in my skin. Making peace with being the squeaky wheel, the outcast, the liar.

Rejected for telling the truth, I didn’t know who I was any more. None of my assigned roles were really me.

I decided I want to really live before I die. Listening to myself and not the clamor of voices telling me who I was, who I should be.

I see their lips moving, but I don’t hear them any more.

KHAWAGA

KHAWAGA My Life as a Foreigner

Memoir of a father/daughter broken relationship.

It’s been a slow and painful journey through the dysfunction. Identifying his sickness (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) was key in my progress.

I’ve been writing KHAWAGA since  2014. The chapters are falling into place, it’s no longer just pages of words.

There is healing in the power of the written word.

KHAWAGA

marble concrete steel

icy blue eyes shoot daggers

familiar stranger

 

 

 

 

Sideways

The mushroom in my photo did not let the pot get in its way. Instead of saying, “Oh, I’ve been blocked, I’ll just give up!”, it just changed directions.

I’m going to print this photo, frame it and keep it on my desk as a reminder that I don’t have to feel “blocked”. Like this jaunty yellow mushroom, I’ll just get a little sideways.

Integration

Characters blocked.

Truth as fiction is hard to write.

So called justice through the court system in America? If you haven’t already figured it out for yourself, it boils down to this anonymous quote, “Whoever has the most marbles wins.”

Stacks of documents, yet he’s still free. International Deadbeat Dad. The story of how low he will sink to perpetuate a fraud.

Forty-one years later, no justice. Blocked at every turn in real life and blocked in writing, a character is clammering to be set free.

Alexandria Pearl McClammy

“Integrate! I’ll unblock you.”

I hear her. She’s been getting louder for almost four years.

I’m letting her have a go at it.

Truth as Fiction.

Integration